.:| Faith and Deeds, My Valentine An!, 722, Sushi and Sunrises, Devo's and Tremblant.... God's been good to me..thanks Dude |:.i suck at updating. lol.
so here's the deal since i last blogged... we did a bible study on faith and deeds... basically it really challenged me to really look over myself. Trying to make changes trust God in every aspect of my life. If you got time check out
722 watch it.. it's cool.. (note make sure u have 2 hours free per episode).
had the best conversation with An on the 14th..she my valentine! love you lots girl, always.. you going to be special to me forever, no matter where we are.. if it's MTB or not.. it's all God's plan, i'm thankful for the time we've had. ;)
went out to coffee and CAKE i love CAKE! with Princess Jenn/The King/Jon/Jon/The Bun/Derrick...very fun very cool...
work work work.. lol i guess it's a blessing.. (different outlook on things.. in everything u do..do it to praise God... He put me there for a reason..just gotta trust Him)
i bought a couple of CD's .. 'Illuminate' and 'Sushi and Sunrises' by The Dave Crowder band... very cool...
started doing Devo's again.. Jen keep it up.. ur helping me at the same time i think i'm helping you when we do the devos at the same time. thanks for your unbelievable friendship... honesty and just all the talks!
went to Tremblant (thanks everyone for praying). Went with Andrew (aka third-tit), Winnie (aka That Girl), Lana (aka Princess), Lyan (aka Baby Princess), Trent (aka Token Asian Lover), Perry (aka Perry Gone Wild), Lien (aka Tru Viet) .. and me (aka Dumbo). It was an unbelievable trip..(the best i've ever had). There wasn't anything super super good or super super bad that happened..everything was perfect.. not too much..not too little. Everyone was great, we all really relaxed. 1st night, got in...place was soooooooo nice! Lotsa of drinks! Had a long talk with my friend Lyan the first night.. was very cool. :D i miss the QT with my friends. 2nd day boarded all day... went back drank more...celebrated birthdays
...and drank more... played poker (forced to drink more).. messaged princess Jen... went to sleep. lol hahahaha 3rd day..walked around shopping in the village and went home.. i'll up date more... and say more about the trip..that's the summary.. here's the pics check it out yo. Basically though..i could see God everywhere this weekend and i THANK HIM for the beauty he provided...and the friends in my life. I love all you guys... hahahhahaha cheesy moments done! Blog soon i hope! PEACE!!!! One Love!
I'm SorryI sat down today.. I'm talking to my ex. She's telling me how I lied to her. I did. Over the last two years I hid who I was from her. She tells me I changed over the two years, and I did. I lost me. I was so in love with her that I changed myself.. And I denied the one thing that was most important to me from her, because I was scared that I'd lose her over it. In the end ... I had nothing...And I lost her over it.. Our relationship got worse and worse... And it finally ended, but not before there were/are a lot of scars on both sides. My God.. who was my everything, who gave everything for me... and i turned away from Him. WTF? I finally told her that she didn't fall in love with me two years ago.. she fell in love with Christ in my life... I chose wrong. I'm sorry to her. but i'm even more sorry to Christ. How messed is that? He gave up his LIFE for ME! and i can't submit to him and do what He wants with my life. 'No God i can't tell her about you... cuz i'll lose her' and in the end after all thats said and done, my name a'int silq no more its loser, cuz i lost her and i lost my relationship with God... i know what it's like to lose everything. I don't ever want to do that again.. i missed that old Aaron.. the one that wanted to do everything for God. So i'm submitting. I quit to try to control everything in my life, i should be me. I'm scared cuz i don't have control.. i don't like.. because i'm doubtful.. i'm a big chicken. i don't want to be like that no more. God i'm broken. I have nothing... so i dropped to my knees again and i'm telling you take over..everything... i just want to trust you. for everyone out there who knows God.. i want you to hold me accountable. 'do you know what ur getting into?'... i do. Tuong i'm sorry i didn't give you all of me, and i hid from you the biggest part of me...i did love you more than anything (and it shouldn't be like that..i should have been i love with God first, though i know u might not understand that..but i never gave u the chance too..i hope you can forgive me). God, I'm sorry for EVERYTHING, i'm sorry i didn't put you first, i'm sorry i didn't trust you... please don't let me get lost again, i can't live my life like that again and please help tuong..its not her fault that i screwed up. I love you God. I'm sorry.
patience
i think i need more of it... it is so hard to be patient in life.. everything. From where i'm at to where i want to be. Lord give me the strength to be patient.. trust you.. and just stay real. I know that i want a lot of things.. but probably truth is timing isn't right. I want my way but it doesn't work like that. Just gotta continue trusting God... (so hard to do)... cuz i really don't see what He's got planned... (i don't like,but.. what other choice do i have...it's called faith right?? and if i don't act on it... then well...then it's not really anything right???). Learning a lot..just gotta be patient.
what do i want in life? i've been thinking a lot lately... now you all get to hear deep deep coversations of my mind.... scary huh?
I want to be a Success... being successful doesn't mean being wealthy to me though, money can buy a whole bunch of stuff... but it's all stuff.. i want the real good stuff... so when i say it.. i mean,
i want to be a success as a child of God
i want to be a success as a husband
i want to be a success as a father
i want to be a success as a friend
i want to be a success as a human being
i want to be a success at my career (hopefully being able to help others somewhere along the way)
i think i'd like to be famous, but only if i can be all those things. i'd take the riches and thank God for them..but i can live without...
i want to be a succes at being humble.
what's mine a'int mine.. it's beeng given to me to help others... so i gotta use it that way. humility is something i wish i had more of.. neways i just thought i'd wake up at 2:30 am and blog about it... more to come this week.... i got a lot to say.
