"to all those lost souls who have forgotten to believe in the immensity of love"

Surrender

officially something i gotta write about tonite.... the word has been coming out a lot and i thought i'd write about it.. so i opened up my devo bible ("The Inspirational Study Bible" NKJV) to look for something about it.. was gonna flip back to the concordance and boom there's an exerpt on the page that says... SURRENDER in big bold letters... let me start by stating the afore mentioned page:

"In our 'bootstrap' society, where you tough it up and do it on your own and take pride in being a rugged individualist, the one thing that seems to escape us is being before God on our knees - being before God, aware that we are helpless and allowing Him to assist us.
Can you say to Jesus, 'This burden is too heavy for me. I want you to be my co-worker. I want you to carry this burden with me. I cannot do it any longer.' He says if you will come to Him, if you allow Him to carry that burden with you, His promise is that you will recieve rest.
Surrendering our life to Christ means going to Him and saying, 'I'm yours; use me however you want to.' Once you've done this, you can begin to seek His will for your life.
Once we're honest with ourselves about who we are, then God can begin to remold our hears... in total surrender.
(prayer) Father, we invite your assistance and guidance and powerful indwelling, because we do not have the strength to be transformed into your likeness and not be conformed to this world. May we understand more of what it means to say 'It is well with my soul'."

Surrender... giving up everything to God. It's a major theme this summer for a lot of people in Ottawa i find.. I know for sure one person has it written on the banner of there cel phone as a reminder.

The last few weeks have been a struggle with me... i guess i've been drifting from God a lot and not listening to what He wants from me. I was thinking maybe it's just cuz i was sick for awhile and then maybe it was something like i'm just "blah" because it's been 5 years since Del passed.. and a year since Lawrence (flip)...(R.I.P. all y'all g'zus4eva). maybe it's cuz of all the things that happened to me last summer with Laeth and i'm just reminded .. maybe it's just everything.

And then it struck me in a conversation with someone the other night.. when we made a decision to surrender ourselves and how we feel about each other to God rather than to our own desires. I'm not giving God everything .. i've lost that focus and i've tripped slipped up.. I'm only giving Him props when i'm happy or things are going good.. when it should be like in that song.."Praise you when i'm laughing, praise you when i'm grieving, praise you every season of my soul.". I a'int even taking the time to chill with Him (ie. devotions) and even though i'm not worthy to be in His presence all the time.. i'm not taking the grace and mercy he's given me. The Christian life is not an easy life.. It's not all pretty flowers and green meadows.

Acts 20-22-24 "And now, compelled by the Spirit, I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there. I only know that in every city the Holy Spirit warns me that prison and hardships are facing me. However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only iI may finish the task the Lord jesus has given me - the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace" (NIV)

Matthew 16:24 "Then Jesus said to his disciples, 'If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me." (NIV)

Check it yo... Surrender... "All to Jesus i surrender... i surrender all".

*on a side note i didn't get into english..but it's a'ight i'm givin' mad love to God that i didn't get kicked out of school this term (tha's been heavy on my heart since April). Thanks dude! a'ight Peace and Luv y'all!

posted by SilQ @ 2:53 AM