"to all those lost souls who have forgotten to believe in the immensity of love"

i think it's starting to settle in.. summers ending soon.. and a new chapter in my life is starting.  kinda crazy to think of all the twists and turns in this journey that i've been going on these past 27 years. i finally looked up, instead at my own feet.  one more month in ottawa, i'll miss -- what these next 3 years in Calgary will hold, is wow. the question now is where is home? i know that things will change, grow and live. just like i will change, grow and live. that's the beauty of life, how it just groans with growth.  Despite uncertainty, nervous anxiousness.... God is good, so praise Him. Isaiah 26:8

posted by SilQ @ 10:40 AM 0 Comments

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God is good. i a'int saying my life is perfect... and everything is going perfectly, but the amount of love and grace He's touched in my life the last few days has been incredible. By His grace, i've been able to choose to listen and see the lessons about life through the strom... i guess you just have to look and ask.. God what do you want me to see? I love the beauty that can be found in imperfection, because it's in imperfection that you can see Jesus and through Him God. i am not...but i know I AM.  Thank you.

posted by SilQ @ 1:39 AM 0 Comments

Lightning, we've had some big storms this summer. It was beautiful tonight, it showed God's presence. I actually caught this on my camera, which was cool.There's been a lot of storms in my life, but through it all i can see God and how He's working, in my life. It's like lightning... you just need to be patient to get the picture. 

posted by SilQ @ 11:16 PM 1 Comments

I love this song... i love the fact that it's from the perspective of how God thinks about us.  It's God promise to us and how he views each and everyone one of us.  
That's why he gave us Jesus... to give us eternal life yah, and restore the relationship between God and man, that he intended and we gave up by sinning in Eden. Kinda cool. 
God is good. Praise Him.

 More (Matthew West)

Take a look at the mountains, Stretching a mile high
Take a look at the ocean, Far as your eye can see 
And think of Me

Take a look at the desert, Do you feel like a grain of sand?
I am with you wherever, Where you go is where I am

And I'm always thinking of you
Take a look around you
I'm spelling it out one by one 

(Chorus)
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today 
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more 

Just a face in the city, Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million, And you belong to Me

And I want you to know
That I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone

(Chorus)
 I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today 
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more 

Shine for Me 
Shine for Me
Shine on, shine on
Shine for Me

(Chorus)
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today  
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more 

(Chorus) 
Than the sun 
and the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you, yesterday and today
 Through the joy and the pain 
I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more

And I see you 
And I made you
And I love you more than you can imagine
More than you can fathom
I love you more than the sun 
And you shine for me

posted by SilQ @ 4:06 PM 1 Comments

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning. 

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble. 
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell. 
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray. 
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

Tears and Rain - James Blunt

posted by SilQ @ 11:52 PM 0 Comments

Africa

Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter- when you see the naked, clothe him, and not to turn away from you own flesh and blood?  Then your ligh will break forth like the dawn and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard.  Then you will call and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say Here I AM. (Isaiah 58:7-9)

We here a lot about it, starving nations, aids epidemic, poverty, live aid, The ONE campaign, debt forgiveness, bono, etc. 
2/5 of the worlds population lives on less than $2 a day. Half of that live on $1 a day.

10 year old Elijah.  Both his parents have passed away, yet he is happy and his joy is found in Jesus.
10 year old Promise. Another Ugadan orphan. Dreams of being a musician.

Watoto. It means children in swahili. If you had asked me if i'd do missions a year ago.. i'd have said no.. i think i should stay in N.America.  God's been working and changing, stretching me and growing my heart.  Even knowing all these live aid and THE ONE campaign, supporting aids through aldo etc... Meeting a child from that part of the world.  Who has nothing even close to what we have in N. America. Not even parents. But who's love for Jesus is so much more real then half the people i know who have everything.  You can't say their faith isn't real... or it's that of a child.  They have had a harder life in their 10 years than i have ever had and may ever have.  Yet they dream and hope and love God. My problems may seem suck to me, but really they a'int bad, they a'int anything. 

The hello i recieved from the children today when i entered the room, blew me away.  The love they showed us when they thanked us, for really not doing much (i just handed out plates and helped my mom scoop rice), it was the best thank you i have ever gotten, they sang us a thank you, a blessing and then they hugged us.

Africa, since i was a younger it's always been somewhere my heart has had a heart for.  I did economics because i wanted to make a difference in the World Bank or IMF.  I did development, because i thought i'd always end up there...
I think i'll be a missionary one day, i'm shocked i can say this, but it fits my heart. Africa.

posted by SilQ @ 12:25 AM 2 Comments