5.16.2005

"And then there's the one who will be waiting, waiting for God and life to catch up with his dreams, or maybe it's the other way around."

it's been awhile since i blogged.. normally i don't have a problem finding the words to really express and articulate myself.. but the way i been feeling lately, i've had a lot of trouble with it. I guess i'm realizing that i'm growing up a lot lately... and it's been kinda long overdue. the quote from the top came from the website of one of my friends in queens..who i guess seems to be going through a similiar time as me.

memories. wow, out of my group of friends in university the last one finally graduated. we had a party last week, a going away party/celebration, i was reluctantent to go at first but then my friend winnie, said.. 'this maybe the last time all of us party like this ever.' the thought made me kinda sad. i think that the friendships that i made these past few years, were really solidified this past year since September. we were so on and off and some of us disappeared when we got significant others but then suddenly we all kinda met up in september.. there was a lot of partying, a lot of dinners (guys cook! -which is the norm with us..lol), a lot of talks just about everything in life. my friends helped me find myself again, and though most aren't Christian, i know a lot of them challenged and encouraged me to find out who i was again,and my identity as a Christian. Now it seems we are all going our seperate ways now...more so than ever. Reading An's blog was like reading how i felt in my heart. We all taking steps towards the rest of our lives, one of us is starting her career and another is looking at the opportunities to see the world, another one is a step closer to settling down ('white picket' fences), a couple are finally taking grasp of their abilities and going to pursue their dreams, another has taken the opportunity to advance her career wonderfully.... some are just waiting and i know they'll realize soon what they want in life.... and i'm sitting here waiting, having so many dreams..waiting for God and life to catch up to me, and i think i've realized and it's taken awhile.. that maybe God's waiting for me to catch up to His dreams for me... i love you all and i know that there'll always be love for all y'all. i guess it's just another chapter. Can't wait to experiance what's next.

ur right princess.. it's a good thing.

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