"to all those lost souls who have forgotten to believe in the immensity of love"

F. Nietschze "God is dead... and we have killed Him."

Nietschze is most often quoted with only the first part of the sentence. Therefore Nietschze is a blasphemous... whoa... big picture time. Interesting observation he made huh? The second part of the sentance totally changed the meaning of his words. Anyways tha's something i learned in English class recently and i thought a lot about.. interesting society and culture we live in....

So it's been awhile since i blogged 'bout something real to God and i really feel i should.. i've been too inward focused lately, not looking at the big picture as i should. I've been struggling with my walk, and i get the vibe a lot of people aren't were they want to be either. It might be just little things and it might be big things... but little things become big things quick as i have found out. I know lately i've been kinda tripping up and slipping up.. so here's the deal... u help me help you and at the same time i help you help me... the concept of "iron sharpening iron" Proverbs 27:17, it's like how Paul writes about encouraging others at the same time He himself gets encouraged.. so guys lets chat........ (ok since this is my blog page.. i talk everyone else read.. muahahahahaha well tha's why i put comments for u guys... no.. i just thought it was cool to have comments) ok really now.... i wish i had something more profound to say... but i don't.. i got a song in my head and the lyrics kinda hit on the spot what i feel lately..... so here we go:

"I Turn Everything Over"

Monday found me on my knees again
Breathing You in
To blur the lines that mark where i begin
And where You end
No use in trying to pretend
Come take me again
'Cause rumor has it I'm not who
I've been
Come define me

(prechorus)
What can we do
If the rumors are true?
(chorus)
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
There's nothing left of me to defend
I turn everything over
I turn myself in. yeah.

The evidence convicts the hollow men
After lookng inside
To my dismay I find i'm just one of them
'Cause i'm already but not yet
resurrected fallen man
Come break this limbo
And i know you know just i've been
Come define me.
(prechorus)
(chorus)

Rumor has it you love me
Rumor has it the world spins upside down
Rumor has it my only hope is You.
And the rumors are true
I turn everything over
(prechorus)
(chorus)
[-by swichfoot]

The Second verse hit me ... lately been feeling hollow. I want to live my life for Christ. Be a light on campus. Be a light for my friends. Be a light at work. I haven't been doing a good job. I could use a million excuses in the world, why i haven't but they wouldn't mean a thing, cause i haven't let God work. I think it's time i not only want to turn EVERYTHING over but i actually turn EVERYTHING over. I hope everyone who's been feeling kinda blah will come along with me. I hope you guys will feel encouraged and do something. and i hope you guys hold me accountable.. Rumor has it ....

"Try not, Do or Do not. There is not Try" -Yoda

posted by SilQ @ 11:24 AM 0 Comments

yo.. u always got me babe.

posted by SilQ @ 12:13 AM 0 Comments

"Sunshowers and Stormy Weather"
(-Aaron Chuah)

It's been full of sunshine, the most amazing summertime
lately the rains been falling, been on my knees feeling like balling,
but i .. won't cry .. won't die .. won't fly,
funny how we gone from wanting to be togetha, to being sista and brotha.
we gone through sun showers and stormy weather,
it's all good cuz it's all for the betta..
cuz when it's low, we know, we grow, we show.
after the dark night there's always a new day,
tha's why we look up, hook up and pray.

posted by SilQ @ 1:51 AM 0 Comments

Ok so i really really don't know what to blog about. There's been so much stuff going on and it hasn't been great. See i was on the verge of saying this was an amazing summer, and for the most part it has been. I learned a lot this summer and i got to get to know a lot of people really well. Problem is as summer's winding down... it seems that everything around me is going down the drain with it. It started with just having to say goodbye to someone which sucked a lot, cuz she really means a lot to me... but things actually got way worse (yes that bad hasn't ended yet).. to the point where that doesn't even matter to me right now, 'cept i really wish she were around cuz i'm totally out of strength.. i can't deal with everything tha's happening to my friends and family right now. Nothing makes sense at all and i'm about two stamps away from delivering mail as a career. Damn i'm tired. Don't know what to do. Everyone please keep my friend (name undisclosed at the moment) and my aunt amy and her family in your prayers... both going through a lot of difficulties and it's mostly life ...serious life stuff.... hope the bleeding stops soon. Peace.

posted by SilQ @ 12:04 AM 0 Comments

Let Go... Let God
(-Aaron Chuah)

What does it take for us to realize,
the world seems to move so fast it passes our eyes.
As we grow older we grow colder,
with the weight of the world on our shoulders.
Life's suppose to be for loving and living,
but all it seems is, it's taking not giving.
And i walk about with a heavy heart heaving,
cuz deep inside it's always 'bout greaving.
u ask for one mic, but u got one life to fight,
one sight, one light, one chance to reach the height,
the pinaccle of succesion, the point of expression,
my desires my passion, to stand firm when the waves are crashin'.
to try to understand it is to underhand it..
u'll never get to know, until your in the sod..
You gotta LET GO.. and LET GOD.

posted by SilQ @ 1:57 AM 0 Comments